I have taken a few months off. Things in life were pulling me a lot of different directions. I needed to focus on things like if I was writing for me or for the Lord. I’ve focused a lot of time on growth in my stewardship. Let me expand on that for a bit. I have gifts that I know are from the Lord, but I don’t take the time to pour myself into those gifts and use them well to grow the Kingdom. I fall short so many times. I don’t like to tell people no. That is probably like one of my worst qualities, actually. Saying yes to ALL of the things. I liked being a yes girl. Oh you need something I can do that for you. Oh you need that, yep I can fill those shoes. I am learning to focus on my time with the Lord more. Being more intentional to where I am giving my time and focus. I have a short amount of time to do my job that God has put me here to focus on. If I say yes to all of the things then it pulls my focus from the things that should actually be holding my focus. Things that are how I plant and water seeds. How I go and make disciples. That is the great commission is it not? I am still working on being a better steward of my gifting and the things God has given me, but also learning to say no at the same time. Do any of you struggle with that?
It has really been on my mind for the last month. I have spent a lot of days at the hospital with my son who was in a diabetic coma for 3 days and then not 2 weeks later was in for blood clots in his lungs. A lot of countless hours spent in prayer, self reflection, and thought. I have spent a lot of time throughout my life in the hospital with a sick kiddo. I use it for time with the Lord and growing my prayer life as I cry out to God to spare my sons life and heal him. Lots of other prayers too. This time was focusing on how I spend more time living how God is showing me. Less time being selfish with my time on earth. Less of me and more of him. More of me listening and less fighting. More obedience less defiance. Like When Mordecai was talking to Esther chapter 4 that maybe she was created for such a time as this, it resonates with me because each of us were created for now! Our creator didn’t make a mistake and have us born in the wrong time. We are not ill equip for the here and now. He will equip us with everything we need to do our job he created us for. We just have to be plugged into our creator through reading and meditating on the word and spending time with him in prayer. If you think you cannot do what he created you for alone, then you are absolutely right! We cannot. However, we can when we stay on the vine and allow our fruit to grow.
Until next time my friends. XO, Becca
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