Traveling

Alex and I have been away on business this week. Only a couple hours from home, but let me tell you, it has felt like a thousand miles. I feel so far away from the normal comfortable life at home. Now, do not get me wrong I know I will not always be comfortable. God doesn’t call us to be, but calls us to a place for him and the Kingdom. This week though has been a struggle. I usually get to talk to my mom most mornings and here I have not. That is a huge adjustment for me. At almost any given time I can just talk up the stairs and my parents or kiddos are available for me to chat with, get advice, just whatever, and here I do not have that at all. I have just sat in my meh-ness (okay okay I know that isn’t a real word) alone. I have had to remind myself multiple times to just pray. When my mind is telling me that I have no one, that is furthest from the truth. When I am feeling full of anxiety, I have to remind myself of the scriptures of a clear mind. I have to sometimes – often time read scriptures over me. Is there a scripture you like to read or say over yourself when you are feeling attacked by the enemy? I have to remind myself that I am not who the enemy tells me that I am. I am who God tells me I am. I have a clear mind and peace because He tells me over and over in scripture I do. I have really had to rely on prayer and scripture while Alex is at work and I am alone here in the hotel room. I like having the quiet mornings to myself, that is my normal, but then after quiet time with the Lord and a few things I usually go up and talk to my Momma and sometimes Dad. Eat then get started with other things for myself or the things I volunteer my time for. I am trying – not an easy task for me – to slow down and be more available for the things I am really feeling called to and not just saying “yes” to. It’s hard to do sometimes. The people pleaser in me had to fight myself on what I want and what I am being called to do.

Sometimes, I sit down and write and there is a clear view from start to finish and today it all seems like an array of things traveling from here to here in my mind. SO, you are welcome lol for the little tour of my chaotic mind. Most days I can control it a bit to get a whole post out without jumping around and told its more of a mind dump and you just get to travel on that journey with me. I really do hope that the things I write make you feel like you aren’t the only one feeling a certain way or makes things in your life a little bit easier. I hope it makes you open your bible more on the hard days and helps to remind you to pray and never stop. I think so often we think that we can’t pray to him about our struggles or that our minds seem to overwhelm us or even just the “small things” throughout the day but those things are important to him too. This is a relationship not a hotline. You don’t get close to someone without sharing all the things. Big and small. Happy and sad. Hard and easy. There is a place for it all.

I hope you are having a good week and finding time for all the good things in the midst of all the other things in your week. I pray that you each just go to him and have a conversation this week and that you just let him love on you during your quiet time with him even if its when you are walking through the grocery store picking up things this week.

XO, Becca