Goodness of God

Last night as I layed in my bathtub soaking in epsom salt and hot water, on the brink of hopelessness as this is day 5 of being sick with who knows what until the results of my lung panel come back. I turned on my play list and the song Goodness of God by Jenn Johnson comes on and I found myself just thinking about how good God really is even in the times of our sickness and struggle. I lay there with hands raised in the air full of worship. I couldn’t be anything but thankful in those moments. Thankful for comfort in my trials, thankful for being able to have a relationship with Jesus. Thankful that my sickness will be healed. Something else that happened while I was laying there was that My Jesus came by Anne Wilson came on. For those of you that don’t know I began writing this blog because of that song. It was conformation to me when that song came out that I was to write about Jesus and my relationship with him. Tonight it was the same conformation that I was to come back to this blog that used to be a way to me of spreading the good news, but also a way to use my gifts. I have this way of second guessing my self and my work because I don’t feel as eloquent as some or as polished as others but I am also brought back to the fact that God used everyday simple people. He doesn’t call the qualified He qualifies the called. As long as I continue to speak what I feel is being brought to me by the Holy Spirit then I am being qualified. I, myself, am nothing without Jesus. Nothing without what he did for me that day on the cross some 2000 years ago. So what I remember in this bathtub tonight is that he will be my faith when i am faithless, my strength when I have none, and will always be with me and not leave me.

I will leave you with this verse tonight: “God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.” Psalm 46: 1-3