This week is a little hard to figure out what to write. I am feeling rather defeated. I have been sick for 3 weeks. I do feel as if I am on the mend seeing as I don’t just want to lie in bed all day. I am still getting things done but it takes longer or i am worn out when I get done doing things. I do know that God is still here with me. Sitting right beside me and loves me but it is hard to feel those things sometimes when you feel so crummy. Especially when its weeks that you have been feeling icky. I feel frustrated that I am not my normal self and that my walk these last few weeks isn’t exactly where I need them to be. I also don’t want anyone who reads my blog posts to ever think that I am just this Christian that is perfect and doesn’t struggle, because that is the furthest things from the truth. I write my blog because i feel that this is what the Holy Spirit is pulling me to do at this time. I want to show others believers or non-believers that the ebb and flow of life makes us human. Even when things are hard and you find yourself not so easily walking in faith the next week doesn’t mean that Jesus loves you any less. He is just there waiting for you to turn to him. He loves you all the same when you are tucked right next to him or if you have walked away a bit or even if you aren’t even walking with him. His love for you isn’t determined by what you give to him, or what you do for him, he loves you because you are you. That’s all there is to it. He loves you because he says he does. It is sometimes hard to hear those things when you are in the valley and feel all alone. Sometimes when you are sick or when life isn’t going exactly the way you have planned it. It is hard to not feel like Jesus isn’t hearing you or that he has walked away, but that is not the truth and deep in your spirit you know that. Don’t let the devil creep in and deceive you, because that is exactly what he is doing to you. He is telling you that you aren’t being healed because God doesn’t want to or he doesn’t love you or that you aren’t worthy and that is all LIES! Lies from the pit of hell from the lips of the ultimate deceiver. The devil will always lie. He will try and try to turn you from Jesus. That’s his job. He doesn’t ever want you to follow Jesus. Satan wants you to be the farthest he can get you from Jesus. He only holds any power when you let him. When you give him the power to make you feel unworthy and unwanted, because I will tell you that I know that you are totally, completely and utterly wanted and loved beyond compare just for being born. That is it. The moment of your conception you were wanted and loved and nothing you have done makes you any less worthy of those things.
It’s funny how I have been struggling to sit here and figure out what to write to all of you this week and I draw a blank so I pray that somethings comes to me and that God uses my hands this week to speak what he wants me to write about and then I start typing and these words just begin to flow from me and they are words that I needed because I have been letting myself be deceived for weeks now. Allowing Satan to pull me farther and farther from Jesus and from the truth. I needed to read these words just as much as hopefully some of you needed to read as well. This week my friends I will leave you with this, in John 8:44 it says, “He was a murderer from the beginning. He has always hated the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he lies, it is consistent with his character; for he is a liar and the father of lies.” Let his lies fall on deaf ears this week. Remember the you are the child of the King and Satan’s lies do not get to steal from you.
Becca
Wandering Purposefully 